it's been some time...

yeah ,its been long since i last blogged  (: 

missed me??  ;D  lol

hahaa

stuffs have happened the past few monthss, but...

all those are history.

i should look forward to tomorow, my future..blah blah blah  :p

whatever.

i dont really feel optimistic right now.

well, not really.

the fact that i'm able to sit in front of the screen and work my fingers on the keyboard is good.

but, yeah. like i said, things happened.

people change, you change , i change.

some friends are just not yours to keep forever

lets stay with that.  (:

i'm usually the smiley type of person. hey, i said usually.

well ,to be honest ,i dont really know what the hell happened... :x

and maybe it happens to 40% of the people in the world and i'm just not aware  .__.

or maybe i'm used to being in the spotlight, to be in the centre of stuff and all..

maybe this, maybe that...

but what just happened, i'm not liking it. i'm not enjoying a single moment of it  >:O

since the last few days of dec last year...

well, i didnt really notice it at first,

*what??one can be blur at times right?*

then ,gradually, it began to dawn on me, what was happening.  :O

i tried to find out the reason , the punca

but they weren't comfortable telling me...

well...i do not do not favour cold shoulders  D:

but but what to do aaaaaa.

i've became rather quiet compared to last year  :D

those people hardly notice me anymore..

sometimes i tag along,

sometimes i dont.

they talk and talk and talk and talk

then ,by coincidence, it hits them : oh wait, somethings missing. Michelles gonee  :O

then they look around and scream my name.

it usually last for a few seconds and than it fades away and they'll continue on.  :D  fascinating humans huh? thats not my point  -.-

over time, i learn to ignore, to give them the same treatment  (then she gets the idea that i'm mad at her and the situation gets worst) o.o  *lalalaa*

come to think of it ,  i'm growing to like being quiet  D:<

)x  this is bad. i'm nt michelle anymoree.

it kinda hurts sometimes, when i think about it...

to be treated like this isnt fun for me,

but i'll get used to it  :D

*i do not' have feelings wad, horr..

hmph ;

soon, i'll become
that-quiet-girl  ;D

its not that i hope wish desire want that things go back to like last year..

afterall ,its their life. they can do what they want. 

heyy, i make sense right?? ._.