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I hate the way that, even though I've moved on, you still sneak into my mind.


It hurts to let go, but sometimes it hurts more to hold on.

I hate being second to those I put first.

Love that we cannot have is the love that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest, and feels the strongest.

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

When my absence doesn't alter your life, then my presence has no meaning in it.

The hardest part of dreaming about someone you love is having to wake up.

Should I smile because you're my friend or cry because that's all we'll ever be?

Of all the lies I've heard, "I love you" was my favorite.

You never really stop loving someone. You just learn to live without them.
 
One of the worst things that can happen to a person is to be forgotten by someone they will never forget.


It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when it's everything you want.

Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought - useless and disappointing.

Never let him have the satisfaction of knowing you will always be there waiting.

There are songs that make you sad when you hear them. But it aren't the songs that make you sad, it are the people behind the memories.

Never make someone a priority, when all you are to them is an option.

I never let you go, because in the back of my mind, I still believe that someday we'll get our second chance.

The hardest things to let go of are the things you never really had.

It's hard to take a role in someone's life when you're not even part of the script.

The most painful part of leaving the person you love is that they'll never come after you.
 
Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same.


Falling in love is awfully simply, but falling out of love is simply awful.

The hottest love has the coldest end.

I don't know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like other part of my body is broken too.

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish it's source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.

As soon as forever is through, I'll be over you.

The best way to mend a broken heart is time and girlfriends.

Cry as I may, these tears won't wash away.

We always ignore the ones who adore us, and adore those who ignore us.

Tears are words the heart can't express.
 
The hardest thing to do is waking up without you.


He taught me how to love, but not how to stop.

Breaking up is like having the worst nightmare after having the best dream.

True love is when you shed a tear and still want him.

The times we were happy together are worth the times I cry alone.

Real loss only occurs when you lose something you love more than yourself.

Wherever you are, you will always be in my heart.

I hate the stars because I look at the same ones you do without you.

I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you.

Loving you was my favorite mistake.
 
Our sweetest songs are those that tell of the saddest thoughts.


What happens when he's your prince charming, but you're not his Cinderella?

In my dreams you're mine forever.

Pleasures of love lasts but a moment, pain of love lasts a lifetime.

The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else.

If you love me, let me know. If not, please let me go.

You can't buy love, but you can pay heavily for it.

I'm afraid to love, afraid to love so fast, because every time I fall in love, it seems to never last.

It's hard to pretend that you love someone when you don't, but it's even harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.

The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned.
 
When a boy sweeps you off your feet, he's in the perfect position to drop you on your ass.


It's funny how a person can break your heart, and you can still love them with all the little pieces.

My heart bleeds no more since turning to stone.

I gave you everything, but it wasn't enough to make you stay.

I hate you and everything we once were.

True love will never fade unless it was a lie.

If you love me so much, why are you walking away?

I wish I saved all the tears I cried for you so I could drown you in them.

Every time I see him all cool, calm and collected, I lose my breath, my heart starts pounding, and I'm painfully aware that I'm not over him and that he is over me.

While I was holding on, all you did was let go.
 
You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?


People think it's holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it is letting go.

The memories are worth the pain.

A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried. Neither would a million tears, I know because I cried.

My heart was taken by you, broken by you, and now it's in pieces because of you.

When you left, I lost a part of me.

I hate this feeling. It's one I know all too well. It's a thing called heartbreak and it hurts like hell.

Every time we talk, I fall a little harder.

Don't you dare remember me when she gets over you.

Why did I fall for you when you keep falling for her?
 
Where there is love, there is pain.


Love is like heaven, but it can hurt like hell.

Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him.

All I know it that I'm lost without you.

I miss you more than you'll ever know.

How could an angel break my heart?

When I see you smile and know that it's not for me, that's when I miss you the most.

When you're in love and you get hurt, it's like a cut. It will heal with time, but the scars will never fade.

Love is like magic, but magic is just an illusion.
 
I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was.


Once upon a time I was falling in love, but now I'm falling apart.

Sometimes you don't realize how much you care for someone until they stop caring for you.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.

You never know what you have until it's gone.
 
I wish I did not have to choose..
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how am i supposed to live without you.

BIATCH

Its been some time. to be honst, i didnt have any real reason to blog, well thats what i thougt.
But lately things have been building up.


Haters. hate is passionate. its supposed to be a passionate feeling.
Life is short. too short to hate. ish just stop hating la. its not nice. why hurt each other.


STop gossiping. stop all that shit. even if my life ispathetic, it has nothing to do with you . absolutely nothing.
IF YOU DONT KNOW ME THEN SHUT THE HELL UP STOP TALKING SHIT WHEN HALF OF IT ISNT EVEN TRUE.. why the hell are you all to fucked up. get mental therapy.
YOU DONT EVEN KNOW MY NAME SO SHUT THE HELL UP.

all this negativity. i feel suffocated. compressed. confined. noway out. no escape. gotta face it head on.
gossip. shitty stuff. shitty people. friends come and go, thats life . haha
well guess what? easier said than done. hell, if things were that easy life wouldnt be life there'd be no heaven nor hell. screw YOU dont mess with my life motherfucker mind YOUR OWN.

we live on borrowed time. so appreciate it. life has alot to offer. God has alot to offer. your life is your decision. you are what you make yourself to be. so dont mess with my life.. mess with yours. \


"I never thought there could be a love like yours and mine


I never dreamed that I would see the day that I would find

A love that feels so right, but here we are tonight

And now the only thing we really need is time



We live on borrowed time

No one can be sure when the loan will finally come due

But I'm loving all of mine, I know what time is for,

I've borrowed it so I can spend it all right here with you



There was a time when I believed that life held guarantees

There was a time when I was sure my future was secure,

But life had other plans, the future's in God's hands

And knowing that just makes me love you even more



We live on borrowed time

Yesterday is past, tomorrow seems a million miles away

But I promise you that I'm gonna make love last

By living every moment, every hour, every day



Now we may have a year, or we may have a lifetime,

No one can be certain what the future will allow,

But you and I are here, and this time is the right time

'Cause one thing that I know is that we have each other now, and now,



And we live on borrowed time

Let's celebrate and sing as we walk bravely into the unknown

'Cause we're gonna be just fine, whatever life may bring,

We'll face it all together and we'll never be alone

We'll face it all together and we'll never be alone"

i have come a long way yet theres alot more to go. i have matured alot but yet theres still alot to learn. i value my life. i want to become somebody who will change the world even if its just a little bit.
 
If you want to change the world, be the change you wanna see.
 
I want to learn from my mistakes and rise above them.. I want to succeed in life.. there will be trials...
so stop hating. leaev me alone if you have nothing nice to say then shut it.
I know i have a better and more interesting life then yours and thankyou so very much for acknowledging it ;)
meanwhile shut your effing mouth up dont mess with my life. its not yours.
 
friends come and go. Its not my problem. you think im the one to blame. im sick and tired of  your shit. you mess up you clear up. im not going to run after you not going to say sorry not going to do anything at all im just going to sit and watch. bitch, all you crap about are hong kong freaks korean freaks YOU ARE SO SHALLOW.. thats wat i think. get real grow up. lifes not all bout that.
I may be emo with my problems i dont expect you to sympathise at all AT ALL so dont use that fucking excuse. face it . you dont like my shit come right out and say it. COWARD.
 
if i have to resort to plants as my friends... whatever. plants are better companioons compared to you.

The Kim and I ;)

Thats right,. Kim and I went out today, Gurney.
Daniel was supposed to watch movie with me but we called it off as Steph couldnt make it.
Poor girl is in Sitiawan now swatting off mosquitoes :-/ must be horrible..

Anywayss, Dad dropped me off at Gurney aaround 3smt pm. met up with Kim ,she brought her DSLR :D:D yayness ,omigoshh
haah ,Kim's trial and error at Gurney's CNY deco. off a moving escalator ,it was a pretty good shot ._.

We met this dude with bullseyee bobbles stuck onto his hat and he gave Kim an Oranje :D:D hahahahaha it can bouncee :D

We went to Chicago Ribs for uhm..lateLunch.?tea? whatever you call it.

Ben stopped working the day before.hahaah missed him, ohh well :s

saw Choong thou. with his shower-cap >: ) HAHA

Choong you made me laugh la, seriously.

I didnt even expect to see the boy, i thought he'd be in the kitchen all day.

The menu was somewhat entertaining ;)

you want a closer look,?

hmmm, cocktails ;) with all due yummyness oozing outta them ;)

Food was served.

we spent approximately an hour over lunch ._.

what? dont look at me like that. the food was good :D

some barbecue chicken or someweirddish i forgot its name ._.

maaaf la?

Kim's

Bay breeze

quite nicee :D

Mine ;)

Choc Martini

awesomeness ^^

surfing Android market, talking ,eating, people-watching

then suddenly, kims pineapple ended up on the floor xD

it was hillarious at that point of time teehee

we forgot bout time, it flew away ._.

we were late for the show xD

Johnny Depp ^^ Angelina Jolie

drama drama  xD

hmm, the show was okayy, and no im' not going back to watch it again.

it was somewhat a disappointment. or maybe my expectations were just too high :O

The guy at the ticketting counter passed us this when we bought our tickets. loll!

another day Kim, we go watch ;)

Parkson fitting rooms are nice and spacious ;) good place to vain ;D and spent time larh (hardly xD)

mommy call?haha

her and her ORANJE ;D

this one I like ;D

OPEN-MOUTHED society ;) is what Kim calls it.haah

toying with the DSLR

cam-blessing ;)

candid, plus no edits ;)

gao le gao le.? hahaah

awwwh look at her face :D aint she adorablee?

my one-day boyfriend ;) teehees

Nikon :) and Oranje.

and Oranje :)

why do i look constipated? loll

feet. Happpt toes :)

Oranje gave her a headache ._. or her choice of pose.

the Kimberly pose :D:D

her pretties :)

upsyy-down

take 1

take 2

TEEHEE

I come in no peace :(

I come in Lala-style :D

Back home, more vaining :) I cant seem to stop huh x]

Have a safe trip back to Malimnawar tomorrow girl

and have fun living without aircond and a steady internet line >: )

teehheee

Credits from Kim's album ,facebook.com :)

Hit and Run

yeahh, i actually meant that literally.
todays saturday. as usual ,went cec went church ,biasa biasa stuffs happened and all.

my face resembled a fish...or a hamster with cereal tucked in its cheek...or garfields spawn...
altogether, it was pretty pathetic. gahh~

and to add insult to injury ,the car kena accident this evening.
well ,it isnt really my business since my parents arent making me pay for the car or anything. but still... i spent practically half an hour standing by the roadside while my dad and Ben's dad poked around.

to explain, there was this irrational ,irresponsible son of a bitch who wouldnt give way to some silver car. at the last minute ,he braked and there was this really loud screeching noise caused by the tyres of his car. he tried to swerve last minute but couldnt pull it off. he slmmed into my dads car and the car went skidding and halted just inches from the metal thingy you know the road outside e-gate. near the sea wan ._.
he didnt stop (who would) just drove off and his bumper fell off a few metres away xD i saw, but didnt tell. cause trouble nia. de door on my dads side was crumpled and couuldnt be open ._. i had to pull ,hard .and i betcha i looked stupid...

Ben's car was behind, and they saw the whole incident (this is embarrassing)
they stopped and came out, you know lah,
ask if you need help la are you okay and all that stuff.
the dad talked to the dad the mom talked to the mom ,i was pretty bored... T____T not to mention hungry.

people slowed down to look and all. and those people with the bikes and luminous jackets came and mumble into their walky talkies ,call more people come .geez ==
there was this old guy who tripped and me and ben were laughing at him ,sorry old man ._.

ben was entertaining, we talked. but all i wanted was to get some food. i felt like eating him up :( but no fun anyway, he was all bones.
finally i still got to go to queens anyway ^^  happpy dah xD

sorry uncle anutie if i deprived you of your dinner. thanks for stopping and the concern :)

Peperangan Maut Remaja-mush

I'll say this once and i'll say it again :

I never expected to get what i got.

that day was not one i experienced everyday.

i never guessed that i'd be nervous about my results.

i always told myself i didnt care wouldnt care duntwanna care.

in the end i did care. ;S

i did sleep the night before eyy ;p

morning i was late to get my results.

the road was packed with traffic, i was freaking out.

Kim and the others were already there.

the blady radio was blaring out Daniel POwter's "Bad day"

the whole scene was way epic i tell you T______T

the moment i stepped out of the car i receive this text from this super perasan guy.

heck, i hadnt even gotten my results yet he alr told me his ;O

afterwardswhen i looked back i had a good laugh xD

Sachin :

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes ,

saying A-yo ,

seven As yo!

Me :

I throw my hands up in the air sometimes,

saying A-yo ,

I got da' same yo!

ofcause i didnt send back la, i'm not so perasan xD *selfpraise ;)

teehees

the first sight of my school and i was thinking

wth, am i still dreaming

the whole outside of it looked like some fifth-graders art project ,complete with the lil cardboard doors and all ==

geez, pick a better colour next time

holidays d, that Pau catch me somemore,

complain complain grumble grumble :my hair too long la socks too short la yadda yadda ==

sheeeeesh ,its holidays y'know ,shaddupp laa

i wasnt really in the moood to argue or beg.

she made a whole freaking bunch of prefects escort me in ._.

macam VIP le ;) got escort somemore.you got anot?;p 

she didnt take out red carpet nia x]

tskk

when i first got the slip i was literally checking for red ink.

and when it finally registered that i hadnt failed chinese, ten years had passed.

i was going ,thankGod, no red ink right?no red ink

Then i looked down/.....

.....and spotted something that didnt look like an A.

my first thought was like ,nyah??print wrong ar ;O

why does that thing look like a B wor...

yaa, perasan rite, i know xP

hell, it took me moments for my brain cells to unclench and finally register that that B was for chinese.
after that, all hell broke loose. the words out of my mouth were not fit to be in a prize essay. in fact, they were not pretty at all. after what seemed like ten hundred years, i calmed down. accepted dah :D vented out my anger. all directed towards that little slip of tree bark (sorry paper D: )

 fak you, chinese >: (

Later, went Gurney with Bi En ^^ Gulliver's Travels was funni. had some good laughs, forgot it all....

tilll i got home. heck, that was when the real good music began. starting with The Mother T________T

The days of hard work paid ;) God was with me, even in the examination hall .

praise Him Hallelujah xD

I wouldnt have been able to do it without him.

if you'll notice ,i put "days" instead of "months" or even weeks, as i should have.

and you know why ._.

time spent at the library was uhm "kong ho tia" nia ^^ teehee ,

what i was doing there ,you dunno ,i know ,not for my mom to know  :x